relationship. I have just lost hope out in this every shrinking universe of mine that
a real relationship could ever be. I have never had one single guy who ever saw me
for me and was well truly interested in me. And that as we age we would change but
as our outer shell changed we would still be the same us inside. And too have him see
that and still want to be by my side well that i have yet to see or believe will ever be.
Not much going on in my life today no call from the supposed boyfriend . Oh yesterday
I recieved a brief encounter from him a brief Oh I am too depressed with all that goes on
in my life to have bothered to call anyone let alone you. A breff im sorry and then hang
up . Just to know i will wait for days again before he calls again. I still think i should move
on . But the mild exceptense from him makes me hang on am i stupid or what.? I get lost in
my head with my thoughts of a life that proubly will never be.
If someone is out thier just maid for me will i know them when i meet them. Or will i be cought
up with a what was of what could be.
I just can not seem to get him out of my system. My what i thought was my one true love.
I longed for him for years 25 to be percise I got him finaly I maried him then I changed he
changed and I lost him. He does not want me so he says but i allways hear in his voice that he
still loves me . But is it the now me or the me I used to be.
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